What's a Girl to do

How do you look past someone's faults when their faults could have such an impact on their future?
How do you tell someone how you really feel without sounding like a complete idiot?...I must admit there have been a couple of times I have had to write down what I wanted to say in hopes of avoiding that, COMPLETE EPIC FAIL !

It seems like this thing called love, only gets confusing with time. Don't get me wrong it is probably one of the best things that can happen to a person, but why does it seem unattainable at times? There are days where I have longed for someone to sweep me off my feet...I guess I can thank Disney for putting such thoughts in my head.

signing off...again lol,

GiGi

Hopelessly in Love && Pregnant

Since my last blog...I have left Marion Military Institute and am pregnant. Leaving MMI was a good choice for me because I missed home and I missed my freedom to express myself. As far as being pregnant, I am now 36 weeks 5 days!! If you guessed that I am ready to have this baby than you are CORRECT!!! I am trying to be patient though because the longer my little girl stays in my womb the more it will benefit her. Before I got pregnant I thought a lot of women who were dubbed "the crazy baby mama" were just that crazy. Now I have realized that they aren't crazy, but having a baby with someone brings on a lot of emotions. It's hard to be mad at the person who got you pregnant (that person being someone who you like) and not feel anything towards them at all. Hellooooo there is a small person growing inside of you that is half of them and half of you put together. The father of my child is probably the only guy I have loved and actually care a lot about, but we fight a lot. I got to admit that most of the fights we have are started by me and are only because I just want him to realize that the way I feel for him is genuine before it's too late because I might be having a child with him, but my heart won't be open to him forever. I have to put my little girl before my feelings and I have had to make a lot of decisions I didn't want to make, but I had to do it for her. Everyone knows I love that man, but I don't know how much more of this I can take. I have altered my life for him, but he hasn't put forth any effort to alter his for me.

signing off,

GiGi

Love seems to always

sometimes i sit and wonder why is love so complicated. how can something that seems so precious and delicate be so cruel and hurtful at the same time ? why is it that ppl tell me dont go searching for love and jus wait for love to find me but exactly..when will love find me? i have been in love or atleast wat i thought was love. the last time i actually uttered the words i love you to a boy he ended up hurting my heart. it seems like that never seems to fail..boys play those silly little games. *sigh* now im not saying all of them are like dat but most of them..yes ! i even started to tlking to dudes based off of their personality because i felt the cute dudes had a huge ego or something...hmmm turns out i was wrong. maybe its just that every boy is too scared of love. who knows tho ? nobody knows but God. and that's all i gotta say about that.


siqned.
GiGi